Vanity In Her Own Words

To some what piggy back off my last post I saw a post by a great dedication instagram page to Prince and Vanity called just that ,VanitynPrince. There was a post taken from an excerpt underneath a performance of her called Animal. The excerpt quotation was taken out of the late ,Vanity’s, memoir titled Blame It On Vanity. How appropriate I saw that because that was essentially what was spoken of in the last post — that element and realm. In her case like so many she struggled with narcotic and the partying lifestyle before she was hospitalized on the brink of death by age 30 she gave her life over to God and it revolutionized her life so she left the entertainment field to become a Minister which she carried out until her death in January 2016 just 3 months shy of the late Prince. The excerpt when she recalled her entertainment days went like this,

“Whatever sweetness I had left in me was becoming invisible. I was swinging from a fishing hook and used as fish bait, squirming but alluring for all my audience to see. How could a small town girl gone bad, grow into a Woman of integrity. Where oh where was I hiding? I was sadly insecure living in my own confused head; trying to exalt only to exhaust myself, so as not to deflate all the while reinventing myself. Much of those years were spent breaking out and glorifying the fleshly creature called ‘Vanity,’ rooting me into terrifyingly, empty, manic, eccentric, and ostentatious individual. There is no question or excuse… I was well able to act any way in and out of everything. “But who was fooling who.” I had become inwardly insidious with nothing to show but outward growth of hair and nails. Life was surely getting impatient with me, something was lurking around the corner and I could feel it in the bedroom.” Denise (Vanity) from her Memoir ‘Blame It On Vanity.’

When I restoried it I wrote at the top what a fascinating self reflective inner-view it was. She was quite candid about her time in that realm. She was not alone in her experience. They almost all are like that, just dealing with that atmosphere will suck the life and sweetness out of anyone, let alone full long partying in it because of just the ridged nature of the business meshed with the people in it are often on some sort of substances, have mental, and or emotional issues, insecurity issues that is where that ostentatious behavior stems from towards others or overall sometimes as aforementioned. A lot of them are very immature and young in their head. That realm makes people hardened in and of itself. You almost can’t be a sane healthy grounded person and be in it, dealing with it, or around it because they’re almost all messed up on addictions, narcs, mental health, emotional health, spiritual issues, etc therefore that toxic crap rubs off on anyone around it, in it, on the outskirts of it, or dealing with it in some way. In short they are very messed up people most often and some more than others are depraved or close to it. They’ll have minaj twas, orgies, debauchery, etc etc all the time. That’s the world that it is and they dwell and immersed in. That is why so many young talented people are or wish to go into theater because you don’t get that ostentatious behavior and madness that goes on around or towards it.. for the most part. That world isn’t what people think it is. It is a terrible world full of frequently terrible people from the suits all the way down to the acts they mostly all have terrible issues and lots of skeletons in the closets they don’t want to face so they bury and numb themselves in all of the distractions, foolishness, and addictions. ::Shrugs::